I turned 32 yesterday. I had made plans to take Tina and mom to Arcadia. It is an upmarket place in San Jose downtown. For the first time ever, we left Andrew with a babysitter, Rachna and Rakesh were very kind and offered the services of theirs. We dropped him off and arrived at Arcadia. There I was pleasantly surprised to see everyone there.
Dinner was great. I was tired from staying up till 3 the last night. But I was glad that Tina surprised me. I was happy to be surrounded by friends who cared . Went out for a couple of drinks with the boys.
Its not been the best year. The stresses of providing for my family on my own coupled with the work pressure has been too great. I am trying to be more happier and more positive. I resolve to be happier. to not make a big deal of my frustrations. To downplay the anger that comes from not being in control. Those things will be challenge plenty.
I hope I will have an easier year next year. I really need a break at work. Looking forward to my india trip.
The focus for the coming year is following through on the plans that have been in play for a year and a half. Put together a down payment. It is definitely one of the most stressful things that I have ever been required to do. The only thing that comes close was my time in Michigan. The difference now is that I am older, and part of the stress is the disappointment that comes with this realization that I am not where I thought I would be. I wonder if its because I am too risk averse. Or if my expectations are too high. This year, most certainly, I pushed my risk threshold with investing. I was not rewarded.
I was however, somewhat happy with my decision to change jobs. I risked access to free time. I risked my peace of mind. The move to apple has played out on its assumptions. And that is a very good thing. The not so nice thing is that its still not enough to make me comfortable.
I need to have faith that it will work out. And I need to ensure that I don't squander my 30s in the pursuit of future happiness without partaking in it in the present.
Dinner was great. I was tired from staying up till 3 the last night. But I was glad that Tina surprised me. I was happy to be surrounded by friends who cared . Went out for a couple of drinks with the boys.
Its not been the best year. The stresses of providing for my family on my own coupled with the work pressure has been too great. I am trying to be more happier and more positive. I resolve to be happier. to not make a big deal of my frustrations. To downplay the anger that comes from not being in control. Those things will be challenge plenty.
I hope I will have an easier year next year. I really need a break at work. Looking forward to my india trip.
The focus for the coming year is following through on the plans that have been in play for a year and a half. Put together a down payment. It is definitely one of the most stressful things that I have ever been required to do. The only thing that comes close was my time in Michigan. The difference now is that I am older, and part of the stress is the disappointment that comes with this realization that I am not where I thought I would be. I wonder if its because I am too risk averse. Or if my expectations are too high. This year, most certainly, I pushed my risk threshold with investing. I was not rewarded.
I was however, somewhat happy with my decision to change jobs. I risked access to free time. I risked my peace of mind. The move to apple has played out on its assumptions. And that is a very good thing. The not so nice thing is that its still not enough to make me comfortable.
I need to have faith that it will work out. And I need to ensure that I don't squander my 30s in the pursuit of future happiness without partaking in it in the present.
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